We’re 5 weeks into this total lockdown and I’ve really started to notice some frustrating habits that have developed during this.
I mean…my brain has always been a bit foggy and weird, but it’s actually been extra annoying over the last month and a bit. It helps that we’re all in the same boat so probably share some of these habits.
If you feel how I do, let me know so we can rant about it together!
I always thought I had pretty decent concentration considering what my head goes through but that is non-existent right now. I have never known it to be as bad as this. I’ve been trying to keep things as normal as they were before and it just isn’t happening. The one area I’ve really noticed this is writing blog posts!
I have so many ideas that I want to write and, every time I sit down to type one out, I’m left staring at my screen. It is really starting to annoy me and it’s a surprise that I’ve even managed to type this one. I guess I understand that we’re all going through an extremely rare situation and that will have a big impact. I just wish that it gave me a break every now and again.
It’s not just blog writing. I have awful concentration when it comes to reading too! *sob*
Even less sleep
Sleep has forever been a thorn in my side.
Ever since I was a kid, I’ve struggled sleeping whether from nightmares or over-thinking. As I’ve gotten older, insomnia has become my partner in crime and has been walking around my flat at all hours of the morning. I’m trying a bunch of different things to make me sleepier but not happening right now.
These days I’m lucky if I get even 4 hours sleep. It doesn’t help that my neighbours drive me around the bend with music and fighting, but my brain just won’t switch off! I’ve tried writing things down, turning my phone off, listening to music and pillow sprays…nothing.
If anyone has any ideas, I’d love to hear them. I need all the help I can get.
Okay, due to have a binge-eating disorder, snacking is one of the frustrating habits I’ve had for a while. (Don’t worry…I’m seeing a clinic to help me figure this out!)
That said, snacking has been going alongside the lack of sleep.
The more I think about it, the more I’m starting to realise I snack to keep control. My life has gone completely out of control due to this stupid virus so eating is the only thing left to me. I snack if I’m bored too, I reckon. Surprisingly my snacks are pretty healthy, such as fruit and coconut yoghurt. It’s just the frequency of when I have them.
I’m trying to drink more to see if that curbs the craving but no luck as of yet.
This is one of the few times that I’m actually glad that I live on my own.
My mum could have vouched that I have a bit of a temper when I have things on my mind. It might surprise you but I think that’s just my Irish side coming out! In normal circumstances I can only rage and rant internally and keep from people seeing how irritated I am. However I’ve noticed how easily irritated I’ve been these last few weeks.
Sun blazing through my window? GAH.
Birds tweeting too loudly? SHUT UP!
Accidentalily scratching myself with a sharp nail? WHY?!
It’s no surprise that I’m getting more and more grey hairs! I bet I’ll be more grey than brown by the end of this! Haha!
Out of all these frustrating habits, crying isn’t that much of a surprise.
On a lot of my school reports I was told that I’m a little sensitive. That I would cry over little things and that I had to try and toughen myself up a bit. Considering that I was bullied horrendously through school, I think they should have picked on why I cried so much.
Zipping forward to present day, it’s also no surprise that I’m crying more.
If I wasn’t already on medication for my mental health, then I would be yelling at my GP to put me on some as soon as possible. The last time I cried was last Friday when my antidepressants didn’t come up with the rest of my repeat prescription. I thought I wouldn’t get any for the next 4 days, the lady on 111 kept asking why I couldn’t have family fetch them for me from Tesco and my anxiety was already through the roof.
It’s all sorted now thankfully (at least for this month) but I expect I’ll have more days when I’ll be a sobbing mess.
What frustrating habits have you noticed since lockdown started?